Monday, September 25, 2006

Went to pizzahut today with wanting and liangyi after school. My journey home took very long and whats worse was the air-con of the bus dont seem to be working well. Oh man!

woo~ i love gayle! I think she sang well but what a pity she got out so soon. Anyway this year singapore idol is Hady. I think he seem to appear a little too confident but one thing for sure, he got a great voice.

Guess i have been really very slack even till today and N level is in just a week time. Gosh! The people around me including the guys have already started studying like half of all the subj but i am still like on the first and second chapters. Everytime i really want to start studying but there's just so much temptation and i just cant concentrate. Its total madness thinking of how i am going to rush thru all and stuffs. NIGHTMARE! I'll start working hard and stop all the nonsense for now.

Father give me the strenght!


.:sherlyn:. @ 10:27 PM

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Slept till 10 plus then went to meet liping and kel for lunch at bishan mac. After that take train down to somerset to meet the rest at S-11 and went to nexus and to starhub building. Its a long day and i went out from about 11 till 9+.

Today service was good. I think i learn alot from this sermon maybe because of the things i experience recently. It really make me think of how i want my life to be like: Taking the driver 's seat or the passenger's seat? Many of the times i choose to take the driver's seat and have total control of my life which i know its wrong. I really want to commit my life to Him and let Him take control of it. Its really difficult and recently quite alot of things have happen and somehow i choose to doubt Him in the beginning. I feel extremely guilty after and really repent. Its just so wonderful how He change the situation and make everything seem so easy to overcome. He send so many people to me to share my sorrows and make me feel so loved and realise that people do care about me. It's really through tough times that you find out who is true to you. I really love these people especially Him. I find my peace thru Him.

Was suppose to be studying at starhub building with hannah, mila, sandy and chorkwan but ended laughing throughout. We started out laughing over some songs from my phone to hannah's eyes to blah blah blah. Their reaction when hearing is extremely hilarious. We are all in a very high mood and laughing at very random things. I think laughter is very contagious. When one person starts laughing, everybody follow suite. Its purely madness and we just cant stop laughing.


.:sherlyn:. @ 11:14 PM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Winnie's words really left me wondering. Although its just some simple words, it really left me feeling guilty. Those words kinda wake me up. I just got this very uneasy feeling after i hear those words. I know that i did what i not suppose to do and it is to doubt Him. Although i pour out everything to Him earlier i still dont feel at ease. This is something i seldom experience. I feel my heart being even heavier. I dont feel good. I know very well i should stand firm by faith and trusted Him but somehow i choose to doubt it. I didn't even realise it until i hear those words. Many of the times i choose to let myself take control of what happen in my life rather than leaving it to Thee. This just don't work. I must really commit myself to Him and stay strong to my faith and not let little things like this stumble me down. I want to be faithful no matter what comes my way. Give me the power GOD.


.:sherlyn:. @ 12:21 AM

Monday, September 18, 2006

im extremely PISSED!! For goodness sake first period got nag already. ARRRG! Well i admit im at fault for looking out and doing some action and laughing to faizah and im not angry because you scolded me for laughing BUT its because you think i didn't study hard for it. I admit that my emath is atrocious but im working on it ok. yesyes you did say must get at most 20 marks lesser for O level papers which is guage from N level paper and i know i didn't meet the target. Im suppose to get 61.5 marks but from what he say i only got 51 marks. The outcome of this is to be on our own after N level and need not come back anymore for extra class. I did work hard for it and do you think i feel good working hard and getting back this kind of result? I put in alot more effort this time round because of those encouraging people around who motivate me. Its sickening and disappointing. It dosen't mean that if im laughing or joking aroung then im not serious and working hard. Don't just see things at the surface cos it dosen't tell much. Anyway I don't think i will be able to make it if i never come for the extra booster. Im gonna find him on wed morning and see if there is any other alternative. I pray that everything will go for the better and he will change his mind. I gonna work extremely hard no matter what happen. I don't balme you or am in any position to be angry because my result just don't deserve it but hope u'll at least give me a chance to prove myself. Some of your words are indeed hurting for sure.


.:sherlyn:. @ 8:41 PM

Sunday, September 17, 2006

Yest was indeed another pleasant sat. Celebrated HOPE SINGAPORE 15th BIRTHDAY at expo. Suppose to meet winnie sandy and i not sure who else to eat lunch at airport but in the end went to kel hse to decide on what to wear so spend alot of time there. We decided to eat at S11 instead of going down changi to meet them. After eating we took 24 down to expo. On the bus, i saw ms tan. What a weird place to see her. At expo, while waiting for e rest, someone say hi to me. I find her face very familiar but can't remember who she's. She said that she's from bowen. After she left, i was still wondering what's her name. It took me so long before i realised that she's YINGHUI. The hope celebration was awesome with a 1oo people choir although they were quite soft. I was sitting with winnie, szemin, kelly, calean and yuxin in front and we felt like we're some big shot cos we're seated in the first row. It's just so heartwarming to hear some of the testi being shared. The decoration for the tunnel, stage and surrounding is extremely nice. My shepherd was involved in it and she've spent so much time together with her team doing it. Im so proud of her. Not forgetting the translator, i think he's extremely talented and his chinese is like so powerful can. He's basically very very fast in thinking of how to translate from english to chinese because he can almost say it immediately after. I wish my chinese can be half like him. Took alot of photo with the bunch of fun loving people. I love CENTRAL A. They're a nice bunch who make me feel myself. Went to dinner at expo food court. Regretted not eating the duck rice. It look so nice and those who ordered eat it until very clean. Time passed very fast and we left expo at 8+. Winnie agreed to take the balloon home and draw her mood everyday on it. She's suppose to take a pic of it everyday and show it to me on sat. After asking so many people, she's the only one who agree to bringing that silly balloon all the way from expo to her home in clementi i think and im extremely happy someone is really bringing it home. She's very nice and i love her. The journey home took ard one hour or more. Kel was sharing with me abt something when we're waiting for bus home. I can tell that she's stress up for not doing her best. Hope that everything will be fine really soon so that at least a burden is lifted off her chest. I'll always be here for you kel. Keeping this in prayers. After i recovered from my illness i seem to be feeling very energentic and disturbing the people ard me with stupid things.


.:sherlyn:. @ 9:53 PM

Friday, September 15, 2006

14-9-06
Yesterday didn't go out with candice, stefanie and elyssa to eat KFC because i wanted to save money and also to keep away from oily food as i was still alittle sick but when i was walking to the bus-stop with wanting and beehwee, wanting wanted to eat pizzahut. As i was also having craving for it, i agreed and went with her. It was raining and we've to take the longer route to avoid the pouring rain. We ate the set meal and also ordered calamari rings. While eating, we update each other of what's going on in our life. I really miss those times where we would go out everyday after school to eat and just slack around. Those days were so carefree and we're simply enjoying ourself.

15-9-06
Suppose to eat pizzahut today to celebrate melvin's birthday which is on this coming sunday. Melvin and akid said that there's pizzahut at hougang mall so we took a bus there. We only realised that there's no pizzahut there after we reached the place. They're lazy to go to another place so we decided to settle on any eating place. We choose Macdonald in the end because it was the least crowded. We've a hard time finish eating the whole tray of fries.

Lately i cant seem to stop eating. At the rate im eating especially now that i step down from netball for exam and have not been doing any excercise, i guess i'll grow to become FATTER and FATTER. I can't let this go on and so have to do something.

Anyway my physic mark is pathetic. Only five people from my class failed and i was one of them. I got 22/50. Have to start to buck up NOW because im only left with two weeks to N level.


.:sherlyn:. @ 11:30 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

im SICK. At chemistry lesson, my head feel extremely heavy and my vision become very blur for awhile. I also feel cold although im sweating. I feel as if im going to black out. Its just so scary lah. Don't know whether to go to school tml anot. Actually i don't wanna go and my dad ask me not to go too but tml there's eng and geo and i've been waiting for so long for the prelim marks. Ms chek she'll return us this week during her lesson but is her words for real? We've been fool by her for so many times. ARRRG!!


.:sherlyn:. @ 8:20 PM

Monday, September 11, 2006

Today Bowen conducted a check. They're doing this like everytime during first day of school. I did't pin up my fridge as usual. The different thing is tt today check is done by both couseller and discipline teacher. The couseller say my fridge is too long and ask me to pin up now and i was like hello i din have any pin with me so how am i suppose to pin up. In the end they just walk away and say pin up next time.

Extremely hungry since i reach school. During the first half an hour, i can feel my stomach making funny noises already. As a result i keep telling the people around me how hungry im and also doing the touch stomach action. During tt time Mr Goh is saying about the emath prelim paper we doing later is gotta be difficult. He saw me doing tt action and thought i scare until stomachache then i say no lah hungry. The two hour or so of math lesson seem like ages and i cant wait for recess to come.

Emath prelim paper two to me is difficult although my classmate alot say its easy. Perhaps my math standard is just far behind from them. Since i promise so many of my friends that have been asking me to do something to my math, i'll keep my words and work hard. As the saying goes "When there's a will, there's a way". I believe there's nothing i can't achieve if i set my heart in doing it.


.:sherlyn:. @ 11:20 PM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Basically, today is a busy day. Although ny cg have only seven pple coming because most of them were either sick or couldn't make it. We enjoyed fellowship alot and everybody was having a great time i guess. When we were buying food up to kel house, i saw a ah gua so ask calean and yu xin to see. Yu xin din see him but was kinda curious to see how he look like so we ended up searching for him. We felt as if we were stalking him. I din despise or look down on him because he is a ah gua although I may be laughing at him. I feel bad after that. Actually i think he's very pitiful because he dont seem to have any purpose in life and spend his days roaming around the small area. I hope one day he can straighten out his thoughts and lead a more purposeful life.

After cg, went to Bishan with liping just to get some cards. Actually i was the one who want to buy so liping is just accompanying me. Spend our shepherding at an open area next to a badminton court. After her teaching, we were basically sharing about our life. I was doing most of the talking and shared alot about my life which i never dream will come out from my mouth because i never really share it with people around me before. It was a honest and open sharing and guess we understand each other better after this session. Its simply great. We ended up having shepherding for 2 over hrs.

Went to buffet cum BBQ for my cousin 21st birthday at ard 6. There's alot of yummy food so basically i was eating non-stop. Everytime i wanted to stop eating, my cousins or uncles will tempt me with bbq chicken wing because they know i simply love it so much to resist it esp when it's bbq by my uncle who used to run a stall selling it. Its extremely delicious and i ended up eating 6. Imagine the weight i have to put up eating those chicken wing, stingray, sotong, noodles etc. Alot of my family members and some relatives came so i think there's about 50 people or so. Have a great time catching up with most of my cousins which i never seen for ages. I guess my grandma must be really happy today to see all of her grandchildren and some of their girlfriend boyfriend because she seldom get to see esp the older working ones. It's a great bonding session=)


.:sherlyn:. @ 1:09 AM

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Finished my chi and social studies paper for N level. I really thank God for bringing so many fantantic people into my life. They're constantly msging me to show their concern and giving encouragement to show that im not alone. Its extremely heartwarming to know that people actually cares about me and this give me the motivation to go on studying and not let those people down because i know im not only studying for myself now but also to glorify God and those people who believe in me. I also want to thank God for standing by me throughout my exam. I remember just afew hours before my social studies exam, i got a headache. I ate a panadol only 1/2 an hour before the paper but suprisingly i din feel my head hurting so much when doing the paper. Its just so amazing what Thee can do.

6-9-06
Metamorphosis is awesome. I really enjoyed myself especially during the concert. I have learn many precious things thru it. One thing that make me doubt myself is whether i can really speak in tongue or im just imitating them. Im in so much joy yest thinking that i've got it but it didn't last long because i cant speak it at all today. Im really afraid i'll backslide if problem like parent persecution occurr. I want it desperately because i know on my own i cant do much but with the Holy spirit i can achieve even the impossible. I want a strong relationship with Thee. I must believe by faith that i'll receive this priceless gift. Mila we must not be dishearted no matter how long we have to wait and pray hard together for it ok. Althought i left home at 11 and reach home at abt 10, i din feel tired at all and enjoyed every single moment spent there.

7-9-06
Suppose to go out but the outing is cancelled. Its been an extremely long time since i last stay home so i grab this opportunity to spend time with my family members. The day went off well except for a little nagging from my grandma to tidy my room. I promise to clean it when my exam are over. Tml will be a long day because going to meet ny people for cg, liping for shepherdingand going to my cousin 21st birthday party which goes to say there's alot of yummy food because we're having buffet cum BBQ. Cant wait for it=)


.:sherlyn:. @ 10:23 PM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

1-9-06
Wake up at 8+ wanting to study but ended up watching television with my ah ma. Its super tempting and i cant help but to watch it. Left my house at 0950 to meet sandy, hannah and shi you then head down to paradiz centre to meet winnie for KBOX. The time spent together was great but the service of the place really need to be improve. After leaving KBOX, we were basically eating non-stop. After that went to mellissa's house for cg with the rest of st margs pple. I enjoyed cg alot and really hope i'll be able to have a cg too. Took some crappy photo with hannah and the thing she do is super funny. Reached home at 7+. After slacking for the whole day feel extremely guilty so studied fer quite awhile.

2-9-06
Left home at 0120 to meet kel and the rest fer lunch at starhub building. After that went to cuppage fer service. I think i really look forward to every sat for sermon. Its a time where i really put my studies, stress, worries etc aside and really mingle in the presence of the Holy one. I really learn alot through it and hopefully become a better person. After that went to centralA meeting. We celebrated choonmin belated bday, draw abt our ideal cg and the saving card for camp. I dont know whether my dad will allow me to go for all the three nights but hope that at least i'll be able to stay for one night. I shall believe by faith first and start to save up and let the rest of the work be done by the Holy one. Reached home at 8+. I really dont know what to study for chi exam on mon so ended up reading chi newspapers.

3-9-06
My cousins as per normal came to my house but i find them super irritating today. I was trying very hard to concentrate and study and they're making lots of noise and screaming like they have never scream before. Conclusion: Ended up joining them and making a fool of myself. Guess i'll only be able to really study when they left at ard 8. Going to kel hse to learn how to check dictionary. YES you read it right. I was always been laugh at when i tell people this but seriously i dont know to use the chinese dictionary. That's all for the moment. Candice just ignore her and concentrate on ur studies. JIAYOU!


.:sherlyn:. @ 6:51 PM